i'm free~

at last uni is over!!

Yippee~~~~

no more classes with the oh-so-'helpful' teacher~

no more fake smiles to you~

no mroe being afraid of stupid exams

no more dealing with stupidly biased teachers~

no more having to listen to people backstabbing each other~

no more looking at people with a serious case of multi-personalities~

what else is there??

no more yucky food that causes food poisoning~

no more uncomfortable bed that only gives me 6hours of sleep a day~

no more climbing 3 flights of stairs to get back to my room~

no more practising till 10pm~ (not good tho.......)

hmmm..... 

the downside...

less contact with relatively close friends?

less...............................

less practise!!! >.<

eh... not all that many also..

staying home now~

can enjoy doing almost nothing for a month before i'm expected to earn money... 

help help....

anyone know where got appropriate job for me?? O.O

1000 a day...

no... 

i dont get RM1000 a day..

i gotta write at least 1000 words a day to complete my final project paper...

i only have 7 more days to write about 7000 words..

if all goes well i should be ok...

unless she goes n cut evrything out... T.T

i'm getting writers block..

as well as pre-recital stage fright 3 weeks before recital...

help me....

Numb...

It's not like i don't want it..

it's just plain fact that i am struggling to get there..

its not as easy for me as the rest of you..

i am already under immense stress...

even my body is slowly showing signs that i'm being streched too thin..

if it goes on i'm scared that history will repeat itself...

can't anybody understand where i am??

i wanna cry...

my proposal for my final project paper was passed but after i went to talk to my supervisor she rejected the topic...

(which she passed in the first place)

how how how??

have to come out with a whole new topic??

someone help me??

:(

Vent Vent Vent!!!!!!!!

updated as of 22 january 2009

(this post is typed out so i may forget... please pardon the anger/frustration implied)

so.. 

just a little abbrevations to maintain some mystery :P

main character a.k.a source of all things bad = S

boy friend of C = T

fren of C = H

#1

supposed good news gone bad....

who in the world would be sad to hear that your marks for the final recital was reduced to 40% instead of 70%?? hello?? all the lecturer was trying to do when she changed the marking scheme was to fufil the uni requirements as well as help us so that we dun get sooo miserable results.. 

but no.... 

S didnt mind.. she went to complain to the head of department.. and restored the 70%....  obviously S wasnt afraid of getting low marks for her final recital because the head of department was her favourite lecturer.. and he totally adores her despite her lack of talent... 

(not my lone opinion)

and if he ever gives her low marks all she has to do is make a fuss out of it and ignore him for a bit and *poof* suddenly she gets almost perfect marks.... 

(proven fact! he even apologized for giving her low marks stating that he didnt mean to and he will make it up to her...)

#2

Non-Classical Pianist are not allowed to touch the baby grand piano; Non-Jazz pianist are allowed to touch the Electrical baby grand piano

Okay fine... i know this is soo unrelated to me.. but still!!!

how can he imply such a rule and make everyone but lil miss S stick to it???

he already (indirectly) bought the electric grand piano for her..

why the monkey would she want to touch the acoustic grand? go play your own toy!!

other people gotta share the other piano!! and i seriously dun wanna listen to your playing...

it has no flair and it sounds like a recording...

hello??? jazz music is supposed to be improvised.. by yourself!!

please make up your own improvisations instead of playing bluntly what other people have written out... by the way, there is no way in the world anyone that plays 'improvised' music can play it 100% similar even if he has seriously good memory...

#3

"I got NO money"

Quote "i only hv RM20 in my wallet now.. evryday i only eat maggi mee for every meal.. 

i even got diarrhea because i had too much maggi mee"

thats what S says... 

after working at the PC fair, art gallery and playing gigs... not forgetting the study loan...

i almost pitied her... 

but then the truth came out..

the 'i only have RM20' part might be true.. i dunno.. but the i only eat maggi mee everyday part is a total lie...

apparently for the whole 2 months S didnt have o pay for most of her meals... everyday about mealtime there would be someone going by her house to fetch her to eat... and sionce she had no $$ she didnt do any grocery shopping and left the fridge totally empty... 

oh.. and apparently there wasnt any maggi mee at home either...

#4

How Cheap is Cheap??

apparently S who is currently dating T...

but everyone else, they know that she is merely using him to do her work...

recently we even fount out that she is also spending his money... 

getting a new phone, paying for her meals, buying stuff for herself....

and the best part is, she has already made up her mind to break up with him after his final recital in bout 3 months?

oh.. and she is already with another guy, H; and apparently a married guy is after her as well...

and of course there are those countless guys from the PC fair...

"so many choices but all also i dun like"

S and H have alredy moved on to kissing when S and T took more than 6 months before holding hands.. quite fast eh..

maybe she just wanna secure her place with H...

cuz H is richer.. and has better connections...

Tsk Tsk...

there are still so many... but i'm too lazy to list them out....

and all i did to know all these was sit in the waiting room for 20minutes...

imagine if they chatted on for an hour...

haiz....

why are there this sort of people in the world?? 

don't they feel ashamed of what they are doing??

some of the guys that you are fooling aroung with actually have families..

you really dont mind being labeled a homewrecker??????

haiz...

poor T though...

caught up in all the webs of deceitment...

should i tell T bout it?? or just leave it be??

decisions decisions.........

Back there again....

Just 2 weeks..
or rather 6days back at UPM and i cant take it anymore...
Depression creeping into my life again...
Haiz....

holiday~

i'm free!!!!
only from uni for the next 6 weeks :)
violin exams still up ahead...
but i still cant be any happier.. :P

but then...
the past week hasn't been good though..
i was sick, under immense pressure, slightly depressed, had food poisoning n totally lost my appetite...
ohhh... and i couldn't sleep well..
i think i threw up almost everything that i ate...
at least rm20 worth of food wasted in a day..
the worse part is that i went 2 days eating less than what i normally eat in one meal...
haiz..

and for all that the only 'good' thing that came out of it was that i lost 3kgs...
a bit sad....

hopefully things will get better...
i miss food :( i miss you

exams in 40 minutes..... but.....

i'm not studying at all...
instead i am surfing the net reading latest gossip n random stuff..
how how how??

haiz...

cannot be like this!!


(left to study...)



(really)



:P

there are no gentleman left

sad to say but where i am currently stuck at there are NO guys that can be considered gentleman

a list of thing they DO NOT do:

1. they DEFINITELY DO NOT open doors for girls even though the girls have lots to carry
2. they do not help a girl carry things even though he is empty handed while the girl is carrying 2 big bags of things
3. they pull your bag down when walking up the stairs knowing that your bag is already very heavy
4. they PURPOSELY close the lift door on you even though you asked them to wait because you were carrying a heavy load and was thinking of avoiding the 3 flights of stairs. and the best part is ------ he was empty handed yet again.

and now a list of things they DO:
1. call u fat/ugly just because you are not their type
2. criticise you for not knowing things they expect you to know
3. ask you for advice then criticise you for giving advice they do not like
4. make fun of you when you make a mistake
5. laugh when they heard that some bad thing happened to you
6. disrespect you just because he thinks you are not as good as him when in fact he is at the same level as you or even lower than you


hmmm...

i wonder how guys like this even get girlfriends.
cant the girls see anything?
or are these guys really good actors???

haiz..
dislike them so much but yet i am surrounded by them...

WHERE HAVE ALL THE GENTLEMAN GONE TO???
some one point me there please??? :D

AAHHHHHH!!!!!

long time no update...

tsk tsk.. bad blogger!!!

hmmm...

skip all the past and move on to now...


hmmmm......

week 10 in uni now..
so lil time but so many things to do..
help?? >.<>haiz..

week after next there's the technical exams and a presentation for lecture recital..
group teaching and the pronunciation assignment next...

and after getting over all that hurdles.....

final exams just 2 weeks away!!!

haiz...

someone help me????

hmmm...
hopefully all goes well and the next 6 weeks pass really really really fast...
and then i can enjoy my 8 weeks of holidays~~

yay!!!
cant wait!!

so...
after saying all that i gotta go and be MIA again...
back to practice now~

ciao!

why can't you just disappear??

back in uni and facing those people again..
all those two faced good for nothing people!
everytime they need you help suddenly they are all friendly friendly to you
but then when you need their help,
they only help you if they feel like it.
if they are not in the mood..
well its just too bad for you,
you will be ignored and even treated like the diseased one...
the agony of living with them...

the worse part of being here?

the lecturers actually have favorite students..
and obviously being the teachers pet she gets all the perks!
even if she messes up her assignments somehow she still can get her As..
and it happen quite frquently tooo....
how could that be??
hate..... hate..... hate.....

haiz...
graduation come soon... -.-

back at uni....

sad sad sads news for me...
i'm back at the place that i really dun wanna be...
but yet it is a necessary for me to be...
may all goes well :)