when your days starts all stressed up at 6.30am it can't get any better..

after a whole day in the office pretty much talking to nothing..

you cant exactly consider talking to the assistant in the office as communication cz i don;t talk to him at all.. most of the time he talks n i jz nod...

bout an hour before 5pm i found out that my mom decided to do the biopsy and has to stay in the hospital for the night... not exactly a pleasent way to end a day...

bahh... even after receiving this news i still had to make my way to klpac for practise which i didn't really want to go.. stupid people decide to do the photo shooting thing today... haiz..

sadly in this stupid day the traffic decides to go all smooth on me and i reached klpac 2 hours before practise... and what do i get for being so overly punctual?

no company whatsoever..

so that brings the tally to 11hours without human contact..

calls to people don't help..

cz the one that i want to talk to is too busy with his stuff and theres pretty much no one i can turn to... how sad can my life be?

practise which usually ain't all that bad does no help either.. imagine a room filled with about 60-80 people but u cant talk to anyone there... everyone there is more of an acquaintance than a friend.. so i had to pretty much plaster a semi-smile on my face... +our usual conductor wasn't there.. we were left with the conductor that thinks he is sooooooo good but doesn't realise we all din't understand anything he is trying to convey in his conducting..

unfortunately the day doesn't end here...

we had to go to meet my mom at the hospital..

at 11pm... so i pretty much flew all the way home from orchestra and quickly showered and packed stuff for my parents who are spending the night in the hospital.. since i didn't know how to get there my bro drove.. and i tell you.. his driving drove me nuts! i literally felt like asking him to either drive carefully or ask him to bloody get out of the driver's seat..

once at the hotal the first comment i get from my mom were instructions on what to do next..

i didn;t understand a thing that she said.. i don't understand how she expects me to know anything? don't you have an assistant? tell him the details and ask him to pass the running job to me.. my mind is already too full to process anything... my mom might have just went for a biopsy but i am literally on the edge of a breakdown.. the stress of working in a place where you know nothing about and not having anyone there reliable to guide you is bad enough... adding more things for me to think about and remember helps nothing...

after getting back from the hospital all i get is hostility and the cold shoulder...

me stressing out over the whole stupidity of the day is of no significant importance that i'm supposed to supress everything inside my overly cramped brain.. all i can think of doing now is to curl up under the sheets and cry myself to sleep... cz thats the easiest way to make myself sleep... it helps release the pressure in my head and i really need the sleep.. gotta wake in bout 6 hours to get ready for work...

goodnite world...

contingency plans!!

wahhh... sounds so serious...

but i currently only need contingency plans to save my boring weekends...

just this week i have had 3 cases of my weekend plans not going haywire i end up doing pretty much nothing.. haiz..

what could i do??

hmmm......

practice? - top choice! but sometimes i got no mood.. how how??

sleep? - out of the picture cz i think its counter productive most of the time.. unless of course i am super exhausted and on the brink of falling ill...

hang out w timmy? - not always possible cz timmy gotta teach on weekends... T.T

crafting - can! but need to dig out all the supplies and then stuff them back again.. a bit mafan hor..

reading? - but no good books to read.. and marketing/stock market books don't seem to interesting to me...

shopping!! - shopping is super not productive.. + i don;t like to go shopping alone.. T.T

cooking/baking? - oven gone crazy + most of the time there is food already on the table..

what else what else?

priorities..

i have gotta set my priorities right..

no more cancelling on health appointments for pleasure appointments..

haiz...

gotta make up my priorities hierarchy!!!

brb!!

after 20minutes i realizes one thing....

i don't know how to draw using comp.. =.=

do simple simple one here la...

Health; Family; Tim

↓

Work; Music Education; Friends

↓

Concerts; KLPac; Acquaintances; Colleagues

↓

???

(si beh simple!! haha)

what else is there a?

eh.... dunno la.. add on next time..

oh.. if any of you see me messing up my priorities i give you the right to slap me on the head..

though not too hard la!!

:P

Sept 2009

gosh...

it's been a month since i last updated..

tsk tsk..

and so many things happened in the past month....

let me try to elaborate......

(not in sequence tho.. my memory not that gud.. :S)

i quit my job as a shop assistant

i found out that the person who was trying to be the good guy is actually the bad guy to start with..

haiz... people have to realise that when they do stupid things others will eventually pick up on it..

no way was i going to stay there after everything that happened..

only a fool wouldn't leave regardless on how much i could get if i stayed on..

i apparently played the violin better

despite not practicing as much.. or rather so little.. =/.. my teacher actually said my playing improved..

though not much compared to timmy..

haiz.. why you can play so well one??

*jealous*

i helped decorate a PINK party..........for a guy

hahahha.. sound so....not right..

but it was fun.. i finally went to midvalley/gardens after sooo long...

went to the biggest craft shop i have seen in KL...

itchy hands.... :P

and also i got to make tissue paper pom-poms and flowers~

my crafting side still hasn't left me fully :P

oh.. and i totally fail at making alcoholic beverages...

shows how much of a noob i am when it comes to alcohol..

haiz..

tho a 17 year old said my mojito was a 'definite failure' i think i like mojitos..

mint leaves + soda water + rum + sugar = yum yum

hahhahha... i love mint~

must try a proper mojito soon...

i am left all alone in the next KLPAC orchestra

the next orchestra concert (17-19th Dec?) i will be alll alone..

XT, WH and timmy all not playing...

how how how?

i'l be sooo bored + scared...

now i got no one to lead me... haiz...

gotta prac more.. or at least listen to the recording more.. =/

i haven't spontaneously bought anything for myself

so it might not be a bad thing..

but i've been working near a shopping center for 3 months but i have yet to buy anything for myself..

anything doesn't include food and drinks laa...

(tho i probably have spent tooo much on food)

but since i started working i haven't bought anything on impulse..

very very so not me.. hahhaa...

gotta plan a trip to some mall to get stuff..

=.=

i quit as a music teacher

i know.. people has told me what a waste...

but i can't teach there la..

bloody idiot act as if i'm not there even though i was standing in the middle of everything..

i really really don't want to but i rather not take the pay and be free that place...

i am gonna miss my students so so much...

my super hyperactive cute little students to the student that has finally showed me some interest..

i'm really sorry to have left.. but i believe you guys and do well..

T.T

i'm gonna start work soon

so soon right??

but no choice la.. i need the $$$$...

haiz.. i miss being a student with no worries...

my next job should be even more demanding than the last..

but hopefully i can cope...

i should be ok gua..

wish me luck!!! hahahaha...

seriously...

meh.. i don't remember what else happened.. anyone remembers anything let me know..

=P

lalalllalala~

there were 6 new students in the past month and guess how many students i got???

NONE

the *obvious* reason why i never got any new students is because 'tauke neo' wants me to stay in the admin part of the business to do all the calls n deal with the clients she doesn't want to talk to...

haiz..

but now i'm gonna get new students~

i talked to my boss about my student-less situation and he has set a list of students to be assigned to me as soon as possible..

thats 4-6 students!!

happy happy~~

but all my 'happiness' still depends on the 'tauke neo'...

she has to 'liase' with me..

lets see how long its gonna take for her to come talk to me... =/

i don't think this matter would be on the top of her to-do list....

but i will try my best to (in the most polite/discreet/not annoying way) talk to her about passing the students over to me~

anyone know how?? can teach me how to be subtle yet get the message through??

:D

hmmm...

n i think most probably.. bout 99.999% chance that i would have to call the students myself to tell them that they are no longer learning with my boss...

but isn't that a bit odd??

your new teacher calling you to tell you that you are now under me not him?? O.O

lol.. dun care la..

as long as i get my students i don't care if i gotta make senseless calls...

but i'm sure of one thing..

tauke neo will try to work me to the bone knowing that my working hours are shorter with the teaching coming along...

i miss my life...

working is totally killing me...

especially my social life..

since i started work i've pretty much don't have time to keep in touch with anyone..

i barely can keep up with what i'm doing for myself..

i have to handle pretty much everything in the office..

from phone calls to emails to dealing with the customer..

not forgetting checking all the stocks.. manually..........

handling the cash... filing.... setting appointments..

making all the stupid calls to collect money from people who owe money..

telling people that they have wrongly priced the items and the items now are about RM100 more even thought they were given a diff price the week before...

not forgetting that i cant leave slightly earlier, not even 15-20mins earlier, as the lady boss doesnt trust the other two in the shop...

i find that seriously stupid..

hello??? weren't they doing just fine before i came in??

what's the point of hiring them if you don;t trust them??

and the pay i get seems so small for all the work that i do...

u might as well fire them and give me their pay since i am the one doing all the work..

including the ones they used to do before i joined the company...

haiz...

and since i work odd hours, its super hard to even plan for anything..

who would wanna go out at 9.30pm?

even if anyone was willing to, where to find a decent place to hang out for a relatively good time?

my violin playing has also gone down the drain...

i'm pretty much back to square one..

i no longer have the luxury to practise..

and i have been stuck on the same piece for the past 2 months..

but even then i can't seem to remember anything that i've been playing..

i don't have a song in my head...

that's not gud.... at all....

brian doesn't say much bout it but i'm so frustrated thinking about it..

sometimes i wish i could just quit and be all carefree again..

even this short short post was written over two days..

(okay not so short after i added on to it.. but still!!!)

how sad can this be??

haiz...

me want credit card....

...but i dun have enough income to get one..

or even if i had enough money i dont think it'l be safe for me to get one...

i see too many cute things online..

T.T

today was karens last day at work...

yay karen!

at last got away from there...

thanks for coming to plaza damas to temen me during my 'dinner' break...

hahhaha...

ooohhhhhh......

i got my 1st pay check today~

hahahaha...

after only 8 days of working~~

not much........ but still happy~

cant wait to get lots of students though...

then i'l get much much much more~

hehehehehe...

*fingers crossed*

i dont like working..

...at all...

not because theres soo much work to do that i cant cope..

but because there's so little to do and what i can do depends on other..

and those others don't move fast...

how??

i pretty much spend half the time sitting and staring at the monitor screen waiting for them to move....

can i ask for a differet assignment as soon as i get this first thing settled??
haiz....

1st day of work.......

.......and all i did was key in product codes.......

how how??

if its gonna be like that the whole time i will die...of boredom...

maybe i shld bring in a book to read? O.o

or maybe.. bring in crystals to weave??

hahaha..

so impossible...

haiz...

students come quick le....

who wants to be my student??

now is a good time to come learn..

lol~

now i gotta get ready for tmrw!!

have to attempt to sleep before 2am if not i will look like a panda again...

hahhaha..

WORK!!!

i gotta start work soon.. T.T

how how how??

no more lazing about the house doin what i wat when i want to...

:(

and i'll be working weekends..

which means no hanging out that much...

:((

haiz....

students come quick!!!!

then i don't have to work so many days.. 

:P

Gong Xi Fa Chai~

Happy CNY~~

The first few days have passed..... 

but the CNY mood is still there sooooo....... 

here are my CNY resolutions 2009!!

CNY resolutions:

i. avoid being tempted by the yummy cookies and tidbits when out visiting people...

ii. drink more water and chinese tea instead of soft drinks

iii. no more play mahjong against pro players.. especially of you are a total noob....

iv. eat less bakua.. 

v. sleep earlier.. wake earlier??

heheheh... 

i pretty much broke all of that in the first and second day of CNY..

quite scared to step on the scale when i get back...

haiz...

musn't miss anymore Sat morning jogging...

=(

My FIRST sale!!!

i'm going broke so i have decided to make jewellery to sell!!!
went by karen's place to take pics of the 'goods' and actually made my first sale to karen's mom!!!

thank you auntie!!!


*have to be rajin rajin make more so can sell!!*

goods sold : 1 crystal bracelet

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i went to watch made of honor woth karen too...
it was a private screening sponsored by adverlets..
it was a lovey dovey movie..
perfect for my mom!!! lol

anyway, throughout the movie i realised that patrick dempsey has rather stubby fingers!!
but he still looks like the Mc Dreamy i have gotten to know...
as long as he keeps his fingers out of frame more
hahahahah

*i'm so mean..*