who would have thought after 2 days of bumming i'd wake up with a massive migraine?

imagine waking up at 6.30am for once but can;t get out of bed because your head feels like it's being hit by a metal bar each time you attempt to move...

haiz.. maybe i'm not cut out for the super relaxed life..

or maybe the stress from days before all got suppressed and decided to blow up on me?

meh.. despite my head pounding away i still went to work..

wahhhh.. since when she so good a??

but if i don't go to work i can't do much... only more sleeping and tv.. +i'd be alone at home.. so going to work was the better choice.. considering that i'l be with my mom and there's nothing much to do at work nowadays..

as expected it was totally quiet at the office.. not many phone calls from clients despite the KLCI moving 6 points...

pssstt... according to some analyst the KLCI can move about 100+ points more... O.o

the only thing was the assistant acting like a total ass and running out of the office doing non essential stuff a million times... but the worse part was that my phone was almost totally quiet.. so much for i'l try my best..

quick quick update!

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the not so emo things i've done over the past month:

eat yummy food for lunch!

now with 2 hours for lunch i don't have to worry bout eating and getting back to work in 30minutes anymore! happy happy~

i tell you the people i go eat with really know how to enjoy.. they can bring you to the fanciest places for buffet lunches and club sandwiches as well as the smallest (or not so small) stalls to eat good hokkien mee and sweet and sour prawns..

oh.. and being the youngest, whenever there is leftover it is passed on to yours truly..

gotta find time to exercise really really soon...

go spa

mom's friend 'belanja-ed' us a spa treat in puchong.. quite nice.. not stuffy like saunas.. hahaha.. not all that expensive also.. if i am not mistaken it is only about rm16-20 per entry of i don't know how long though.. lol... apparently she wanted to open that franchise of spas but the other person went to open one in her 'territory'.. business people mark territory.. scary... =.=

get stuck in 2 hour jam
2 hours in a jam is nothing most of the time when you live/work in the city.. but this time the jam was bad... first of all the trip only takes bout 15-25minutes on a regular day basis.. and all along the way there were at least 5 cars that broken down.. 3 or was it 4 cars broke down less than 20meters apart.. =.= the worse part was when i thought we were getting close to the normally-relatively heavy-but-moving traffic area.. the cops were there.. with their car parked right across the lane.. haiz.. stupid cops.. the road was totally empty behind them... sobz...

what else what else...................

have a day trip to penang
i only went to the penang on mainland.. didn't get to the island to eat yummy yummy food.. even so i was still stuffed by the time i got home... had super big prawns.. all yummy yummy non-the-less.. and i am not a big fan of prawns...

ice skate
woohoo!! at last i went ice-skating after church with timmy~ was fun but super tiring on my legs.. + the first pair of skates didn't fit that well.. making my toes all numb.. boo the person who gave me a size too small.. O! there were many 'pro'-skaters there showing off lo.. mean mean people that scare me like crazy when they whoosh past me from out of nowhere... then there are those people that sit on the ice more than they skate.. those people also very scary... all of a sudden you'll see one of them sitting rite in the middle of your path.. and being a noob in skating i obviosly dunno how to avoid them and end up sitting on the ice next to them the many times that i wasn't clinging on to timmy..... =.= haiz.. gotta get my cousins to teach me how to skate-steer-and stop... XD

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life at this work place not all that boring la.. considering everything that i could do in my last job (which is about nothing - literally)....

now all i gotta do is to plan things to happen after office hours and saturdays!

any suggestions?

:D

solitude ain't so bad...

...all you gotta do is sleep

another lonely lonely day at work... and also the first time i had to lunch alone since i started working here.. since i am super lazy to drive to klcc or what not to eat all alone i just walked across the road for some pasta.. brought the laptop along only to find out i can't get it to work.... =.=.. how sad can my laptop be?

the day passed by relatively fast.. maybe it was cz i was busy clearing out my email inbox from 2004.. so many forwarded messages.. from old frens to old flames.. tsk tsk.. packrat alert!!!!

went thru the pages one at a time.. found a whole lot of funny emails and also some personal ones.. but i had absolutely no emotions towards those emails... it seems time does heal all wounds.. some emails i read today meant the world to me back then.. but looking at them once again i realised how empty words really are.. all that was said in those emails which carried so much meaning then seemed so funny... not funny in a haha kind of way.. but i just wondered... if you really meant all those things, how can they lose all their meaning in a few months/years? haiz..

oh... back to the boring day.. the only reason why today didn't seemed so bad is because i slept right after i came home from work.. after a slow sleepy drive back from work i thought maybe my parents who just came back from the hospital would be at home rite? but i actually came back to an empty house.. empty office room, quiet phone, empty car and empty house.. lonely lonely day.. but either ways i just kinda lied on my bed and dozed off... only to wake 5hours later.. O.O.. by the time i woke, dad was half asleep in front of the tv and mom was already in bed.. my timing so off le.. but i think they tried to wake me many times.. just i didn't wake.. work sucks all the energy from me... =.=

so now 2hours since i woke i'm already sleeeeeeepy again.. haha.. gotta head back to dreamland..

nitez!

when your days starts all stressed up at 6.30am it can't get any better..

after a whole day in the office pretty much talking to nothing..

you cant exactly consider talking to the assistant in the office as communication cz i don;t talk to him at all.. most of the time he talks n i jz nod...

bout an hour before 5pm i found out that my mom decided to do the biopsy and has to stay in the hospital for the night... not exactly a pleasent way to end a day...

bahh... even after receiving this news i still had to make my way to klpac for practise which i didn't really want to go.. stupid people decide to do the photo shooting thing today... haiz..

sadly in this stupid day the traffic decides to go all smooth on me and i reached klpac 2 hours before practise... and what do i get for being so overly punctual?

no company whatsoever..

so that brings the tally to 11hours without human contact..

calls to people don't help..

cz the one that i want to talk to is too busy with his stuff and theres pretty much no one i can turn to... how sad can my life be?

practise which usually ain't all that bad does no help either.. imagine a room filled with about 60-80 people but u cant talk to anyone there... everyone there is more of an acquaintance than a friend.. so i had to pretty much plaster a semi-smile on my face... +our usual conductor wasn't there.. we were left with the conductor that thinks he is sooooooo good but doesn't realise we all din't understand anything he is trying to convey in his conducting..

unfortunately the day doesn't end here...

we had to go to meet my mom at the hospital..

at 11pm... so i pretty much flew all the way home from orchestra and quickly showered and packed stuff for my parents who are spending the night in the hospital.. since i didn't know how to get there my bro drove.. and i tell you.. his driving drove me nuts! i literally felt like asking him to either drive carefully or ask him to bloody get out of the driver's seat..

once at the hotal the first comment i get from my mom were instructions on what to do next..

i didn;t understand a thing that she said.. i don't understand how she expects me to know anything? don't you have an assistant? tell him the details and ask him to pass the running job to me.. my mind is already too full to process anything... my mom might have just went for a biopsy but i am literally on the edge of a breakdown.. the stress of working in a place where you know nothing about and not having anyone there reliable to guide you is bad enough... adding more things for me to think about and remember helps nothing...

after getting back from the hospital all i get is hostility and the cold shoulder...

me stressing out over the whole stupidity of the day is of no significant importance that i'm supposed to supress everything inside my overly cramped brain.. all i can think of doing now is to curl up under the sheets and cry myself to sleep... cz thats the easiest way to make myself sleep... it helps release the pressure in my head and i really need the sleep.. gotta wake in bout 6 hours to get ready for work...

goodnite world...

priorities..

i have gotta set my priorities right..

no more cancelling on health appointments for pleasure appointments..

haiz...

gotta make up my priorities hierarchy!!!

brb!!

after 20minutes i realizes one thing....

i don't know how to draw using comp.. =.=

do simple simple one here la...

Health; Family; Tim

↓

Work; Music Education; Friends

↓

Concerts; KLPac; Acquaintances; Colleagues

↓

???

(si beh simple!! haha)

what else is there a?

eh.... dunno la.. add on next time..

oh.. if any of you see me messing up my priorities i give you the right to slap me on the head..

though not too hard la!!

:P

Sept 2009

gosh...

it's been a month since i last updated..

tsk tsk..

and so many things happened in the past month....

let me try to elaborate......

(not in sequence tho.. my memory not that gud.. :S)

i quit my job as a shop assistant

i found out that the person who was trying to be the good guy is actually the bad guy to start with..

haiz... people have to realise that when they do stupid things others will eventually pick up on it..

no way was i going to stay there after everything that happened..

only a fool wouldn't leave regardless on how much i could get if i stayed on..

i apparently played the violin better

despite not practicing as much.. or rather so little.. =/.. my teacher actually said my playing improved..

though not much compared to timmy..

haiz.. why you can play so well one??

*jealous*

i helped decorate a PINK party..........for a guy

hahahha.. sound so....not right..

but it was fun.. i finally went to midvalley/gardens after sooo long...

went to the biggest craft shop i have seen in KL...

itchy hands.... :P

and also i got to make tissue paper pom-poms and flowers~

my crafting side still hasn't left me fully :P

oh.. and i totally fail at making alcoholic beverages...

shows how much of a noob i am when it comes to alcohol..

haiz..

tho a 17 year old said my mojito was a 'definite failure' i think i like mojitos..

mint leaves + soda water + rum + sugar = yum yum

hahhahha... i love mint~

must try a proper mojito soon...

i am left all alone in the next KLPAC orchestra

the next orchestra concert (17-19th Dec?) i will be alll alone..

XT, WH and timmy all not playing...

how how how?

i'l be sooo bored + scared...

now i got no one to lead me... haiz...

gotta prac more.. or at least listen to the recording more.. =/

i haven't spontaneously bought anything for myself

so it might not be a bad thing..

but i've been working near a shopping center for 3 months but i have yet to buy anything for myself..

anything doesn't include food and drinks laa...

(tho i probably have spent tooo much on food)

but since i started working i haven't bought anything on impulse..

very very so not me.. hahhaa...

gotta plan a trip to some mall to get stuff..

=.=

i quit as a music teacher

i know.. people has told me what a waste...

but i can't teach there la..

bloody idiot act as if i'm not there even though i was standing in the middle of everything..

i really really don't want to but i rather not take the pay and be free that place...

i am gonna miss my students so so much...

my super hyperactive cute little students to the student that has finally showed me some interest..

i'm really sorry to have left.. but i believe you guys and do well..

T.T

i'm gonna start work soon

so soon right??

but no choice la.. i need the $$$$...

haiz.. i miss being a student with no worries...

my next job should be even more demanding than the last..

but hopefully i can cope...

i should be ok gua..

wish me luck!!! hahahaha...

seriously...

meh.. i don't remember what else happened.. anyone remembers anything let me know..

=P

lalalllalala~

there were 6 new students in the past month and guess how many students i got???

NONE

the *obvious* reason why i never got any new students is because 'tauke neo' wants me to stay in the admin part of the business to do all the calls n deal with the clients she doesn't want to talk to...

haiz..

but now i'm gonna get new students~

i talked to my boss about my student-less situation and he has set a list of students to be assigned to me as soon as possible..

thats 4-6 students!!

happy happy~~

but all my 'happiness' still depends on the 'tauke neo'...

she has to 'liase' with me..

lets see how long its gonna take for her to come talk to me... =/

i don't think this matter would be on the top of her to-do list....

but i will try my best to (in the most polite/discreet/not annoying way) talk to her about passing the students over to me~

anyone know how?? can teach me how to be subtle yet get the message through??

:D

hmmm...

n i think most probably.. bout 99.999% chance that i would have to call the students myself to tell them that they are no longer learning with my boss...

but isn't that a bit odd??

your new teacher calling you to tell you that you are now under me not him?? O.O

lol.. dun care la..

as long as i get my students i don't care if i gotta make senseless calls...

but i'm sure of one thing..

tauke neo will try to work me to the bone knowing that my working hours are shorter with the teaching coming along...

no boss = fun~

today there was no sign of my boss(es) in the workplace~

no boss = no students

how nice..

first i get to be less hardworking...

(not that i'm a lazy employee to begin with :P)

and then i get to practise the violin...

which i seldom do nowadays..

i was using a nice nice violin..

fun fun~

timmy next time you come ask me for it k? :P

unfortunately this wont last long... T.T

haiz...

only one day left....

i was told today since i only started work in june..

and i only get 8 measly off days a year...

i only have 4 days of leave from june - december...

that's not the shitty part..

i HAD to take one (1) day leave to go for some stupid rehearsal thing for my graduation..

(thank goodness my graduation is on a sunday.. if not i will be crying now...)

then there's the family vacation thingy to melaka this friday...

most people would say 'ceh friday take one day leave only ma'

unfortunately for me i work saturdays too...

which means i have to apply for two (2) days... T.T

so all i have left for the next 4 months is one, satu, uno, (1) stinking day of leave!!!

hate hate hate minimum days of leave..

even my dads company starts off newbies with 11 days of leave... or was it 14 days..

how can this be?? a bit unfair rite?? or rather a lot unfair rite!!!

plus the workload that i have to handle...

ish... annoying..

and i don't get new students..

so what if there been only 2 new students in the past 2 months..

but wasn't i promised that i get to teach the new students??

why the heck was i told that i get the students and then 'management' goes and try to squeeze those students in the already full timetable of the other teacher??

unfair unfair!!!!

haiz....

oh..

i was made the 'debt collector' again today..

apparently one of the former employee whoose daughther is learning here has some books not paid for...

guess who had to tell her the bad news.....

(just randomly did calculations.... if i work from june till december this year that'll be seven months.... that means i should get 4.667 days of leave instead....)

(The former employee claims that she has settled the bills long long long long ago... =.=)

i miss my life...

working is totally killing me...

especially my social life..

since i started work i've pretty much don't have time to keep in touch with anyone..

i barely can keep up with what i'm doing for myself..

i have to handle pretty much everything in the office..

from phone calls to emails to dealing with the customer..

not forgetting checking all the stocks.. manually..........

handling the cash... filing.... setting appointments..

making all the stupid calls to collect money from people who owe money..

telling people that they have wrongly priced the items and the items now are about RM100 more even thought they were given a diff price the week before...

not forgetting that i cant leave slightly earlier, not even 15-20mins earlier, as the lady boss doesnt trust the other two in the shop...

i find that seriously stupid..

hello??? weren't they doing just fine before i came in??

what's the point of hiring them if you don;t trust them??

and the pay i get seems so small for all the work that i do...

u might as well fire them and give me their pay since i am the one doing all the work..

including the ones they used to do before i joined the company...

haiz...

and since i work odd hours, its super hard to even plan for anything..

who would wanna go out at 9.30pm?

even if anyone was willing to, where to find a decent place to hang out for a relatively good time?

my violin playing has also gone down the drain...

i'm pretty much back to square one..

i no longer have the luxury to practise..

and i have been stuck on the same piece for the past 2 months..

but even then i can't seem to remember anything that i've been playing..

i don't have a song in my head...

that's not gud.... at all....

brian doesn't say much bout it but i'm so frustrated thinking about it..

sometimes i wish i could just quit and be all carefree again..

even this short short post was written over two days..

(okay not so short after i added on to it.. but still!!!)

how sad can this be??

haiz...

my take on the people i work with....

if you were better than me they wouldn't put me in charge of you!!! just live with it that you now have to report...

not to forget that you have to shut up and listen when work is given to you..

ish....

causing unnecessary stress in my life...

i dun wanna play anymore....

recently i have been busy with work and havent got a chance to really practise the violin...
and the result of that is that my playing has gone downhill...
all the way down till i cant even play a D minor scale properly...
and i have to perform soon..
how how how??

i think most probably i'l take this concert as my last for the time being..
i rather not play than play badly..
it's not like they need me..

now i just gotta find a way to tell the conductor i dont wanna play without him killing me...
=/

me want credit card....

...but i dun have enough income to get one..

or even if i had enough money i dont think it'l be safe for me to get one...

i see too many cute things online..

T.T

today was karens last day at work...

yay karen!

at last got away from there...

thanks for coming to plaza damas to temen me during my 'dinner' break...

hahhaha...

ooohhhhhh......

i got my 1st pay check today~

hahahaha...

after only 8 days of working~~

not much........ but still happy~

cant wait to get lots of students though...

then i'l get much much much more~

hehehehehe...

*fingers crossed*

i dont like working..

...at all...

not because theres soo much work to do that i cant cope..

but because there's so little to do and what i can do depends on other..

and those others don't move fast...

how??

i pretty much spend half the time sitting and staring at the monitor screen waiting for them to move....

can i ask for a differet assignment as soon as i get this first thing settled??
haiz....

Can I?

i only have 5 hours to work today~

yay!!

but after work got klpac.. T.T

can i not join the next concert? >.<

1st day of work.......

.......and all i did was key in product codes.......

how how??

if its gonna be like that the whole time i will die...of boredom...

maybe i shld bring in a book to read? O.o

or maybe.. bring in crystals to weave??

hahaha..

so impossible...

haiz...

students come quick le....

who wants to be my student??

now is a good time to come learn..

lol~

now i gotta get ready for tmrw!!

have to attempt to sleep before 2am if not i will look like a panda again...

hahhaha..

WORK!!!

i gotta start work soon.. T.T

how how how??

no more lazing about the house doin what i wat when i want to...

:(

and i'll be working weekends..

which means no hanging out that much...

:((

haiz....

students come quick!!!!

then i don't have to work so many days.. 

:P