1st day of work.......

.......and all i did was key in product codes.......

how how??

if its gonna be like that the whole time i will die...of boredom...

maybe i shld bring in a book to read? O.o

or maybe.. bring in crystals to weave??

hahaha..

so impossible...

haiz...

students come quick le....

who wants to be my student??

now is a good time to come learn..

lol~

now i gotta get ready for tmrw!!

have to attempt to sleep before 2am if not i will look like a panda again...

hahhaha..

i'm on twitter!!

hahahahha..

i'm jz too free~

click!!!

oh...

i didnt get the free bag...

T.T

Eye Candy~

since i have pretty much nothing to do i literally bloghop form one blogshop to another..

and i got lucky!!!

after prob half a day on the computer i came across this blogshop that sells the cutest bags ever!!

- mer? handmade bags -

total cuteness!

so.. there's this competition thing going on now..

and i had to choose only one bag that i love the most...

but there's so many bags there...

how to choose??? O.O

*thinking.... thinking.... thinking...*

Pretty Lady??

or

Back to Nature??

or

Being Serious??

or

The orangy One??

*thinking.... thinking.... thinking... thinking... thinking...*

ok!!

i have chosen Pretty Lady!!

i know i'm so not lady-like most days..

but its so cute...

i like the pale floral prints on it...

totally feminine..

and also soo *organic*... O.O

probably it can make me seem feminie as well??

hehehehhe...

oh... and there's the shape that i like..

if anyone noticed, most of the bags i but are that shape...

:P

don't belive me their cute?

go check them out le~

- mer? handmade bags -

click!! click!!

do hope lady luck is on my side..

:P

WORK!!!

i gotta start work soon.. T.T

how how how??

no more lazing about the house doin what i wat when i want to...

:(

and i'll be working weekends..

which means no hanging out that much...

:((

haiz....

students come quick!!!!

then i don't have to work so many days.. 

:P

i wonder......

are you sure you are not telling me any lies??

why did you tell your friends about it...

go out and do it...

and then decide to hide it from me...

am I that unreasonable??

i'm free~

at last uni is over!!

Yippee~~~~

no more classes with the oh-so-'helpful' teacher~

no more fake smiles to you~

no mroe being afraid of stupid exams

no more dealing with stupidly biased teachers~

no more having to listen to people backstabbing each other~

no more looking at people with a serious case of multi-personalities~

what else is there??

no more yucky food that causes food poisoning~

no more uncomfortable bed that only gives me 6hours of sleep a day~

no more climbing 3 flights of stairs to get back to my room~

no more practising till 10pm~ (not good tho.......)

hmmm..... 

the downside...

less contact with relatively close friends?

less...............................

less practise!!! >.<

eh... not all that many also..

staying home now~

can enjoy doing almost nothing for a month before i'm expected to earn money... 

help help....

anyone know where got appropriate job for me?? O.O

1000 a day...

no... 

i dont get RM1000 a day..

i gotta write at least 1000 words a day to complete my final project paper...

i only have 7 more days to write about 7000 words..

if all goes well i should be ok...

unless she goes n cut evrything out... T.T

i'm getting writers block..

as well as pre-recital stage fright 3 weeks before recital...

help me....

i need a break...

wth is your problem??

so what if i cant play properly??

how the hell would i know that i'd be forced to play by memory????

i never memorized the piece before and just now was the first time i picked up my violin for the day??

i lack expierience that all of you had..

cant i just have a break??

so what if i tend to go off tune??

i dont even know what notes i'm supposed to play!

so what if other people can play all the notes better than i can??

go fucking take the book away from her then see whether she can play everything correct!!!

heck! even i can play perfectly in tune if i can read the stupid score!!

my brain is not a photocopy machine..

i have shit memory and shit hearing.. 

live with it!!

hate life rite now...

why can't i just skip this phase of life??

i still cant believe that i chose music over other interest in my life...

other interest that seems more and more interesting as life goes on..

things that i can relate to more...

regrets sink in deeper and deeper everyday....

if only i could turn back time...

Numb...

It's not like i don't want it..

it's just plain fact that i am struggling to get there..

its not as easy for me as the rest of you..

i am already under immense stress...

even my body is slowly showing signs that i'm being streched too thin..

if it goes on i'm scared that history will repeat itself...

can't anybody understand where i am??

i wanna cry...

my proposal for my final project paper was passed but after i went to talk to my supervisor she rejected the topic...

(which she passed in the first place)

how how how??

have to come out with a whole new topic??

someone help me??

:(