Diploma.. AT? LT? Yes? No?

What do i play for my next violin diploma exam..

most probably i wont re-do the last level..

which means i'l have to work even harder..

with work and all..

i;m scared i can't make it again...

haiz..

gotta decide on pieces now to start the long long long practices...

what should i play?

Bartok?

(TK i need my scores back!!!)

Beethoven?

Haydn?

(i've never seen or heard this piece though =/)

Sarasate?

(Crazy running notes?? maybe not this piece.. or should i try something new?)

or maybe Bruch?

haiz...

if i decide to do this again and don't succeed i really dont think i will go for it again..

its too expensive to do it again...

help...

'i didn't want to disturb'

was all he had to say after 90min..

haiz...

31st August 2009

todays a public holiday..

my first 2day weekend in months.....

but it's nothing like the 'dream' weekend i guess it would be...

for starters i'm home doing nothing... and its killing me...

i hate doing nothing..

which is the sole reason why i am working where i am even though i hate it...

the thing i hate even more than doing nothing all day..

doing nothing alone.. which ironically is what i am and have been doing today...

my parents went out to meet their business partner leaving me at home..

not to mention they took the small car.. which leaves me no choice but to stay at home and do nothing..

i know i should be practising... i keep complaining bout how i dun have the time to..

but i don't feel like it.. i never practise when i'm feeling down... if i do i'll end up playing everything really bad and be even more emo than i already am..

haiz..

timmy is no help either..

don't get me wrong..

he's really really sweet and all..

it's just that although he says he misses me so so much everytime he never really show it to me...

maybe i'm being overly sensitive considering that i haven't really spent time with him for 2 weeks? or is it 3 weeks?

haiz... no help that the last time we were together was spent 'discussing' about music...

plus he can't be here now with mw cuz he's back at college...

i pretty much expected him to not turn up as soon as he said he's friend is throwing a birthday BBQ today...

i don't expect him to either..

makes no sense for him to travel all the way here and go back all the way for the party...

and it was kinda obvious where he wanted to be anyways...

haiz...

i wanna go out..

but i don't wanna go alone....

:(

lalalllalala~

there were 6 new students in the past month and guess how many students i got???

NONE

the *obvious* reason why i never got any new students is because 'tauke neo' wants me to stay in the admin part of the business to do all the calls n deal with the clients she doesn't want to talk to...

haiz..

but now i'm gonna get new students~

i talked to my boss about my student-less situation and he has set a list of students to be assigned to me as soon as possible..

thats 4-6 students!!

happy happy~~

but all my 'happiness' still depends on the 'tauke neo'...

she has to 'liase' with me..

lets see how long its gonna take for her to come talk to me... =/

i don't think this matter would be on the top of her to-do list....

but i will try my best to (in the most polite/discreet/not annoying way) talk to her about passing the students over to me~

anyone know how?? can teach me how to be subtle yet get the message through??

:D

hmmm...

n i think most probably.. bout 99.999% chance that i would have to call the students myself to tell them that they are no longer learning with my boss...

but isn't that a bit odd??

your new teacher calling you to tell you that you are now under me not him?? O.O

lol.. dun care la..

as long as i get my students i don't care if i gotta make senseless calls...

but i'm sure of one thing..

tauke neo will try to work me to the bone knowing that my working hours are shorter with the teaching coming along...

wats wrong with my layout/skin thing???

help?

T.T

no boss = fun~

today there was no sign of my boss(es) in the workplace~

no boss = no students

how nice..

first i get to be less hardworking...

(not that i'm a lazy employee to begin with :P)

and then i get to practise the violin...

which i seldom do nowadays..

i was using a nice nice violin..

fun fun~

timmy next time you come ask me for it k? :P

unfortunately this wont last long... T.T

haiz...

only one day left....

i was told today since i only started work in june..

and i only get 8 measly off days a year...

i only have 4 days of leave from june - december...

that's not the shitty part..

i HAD to take one (1) day leave to go for some stupid rehearsal thing for my graduation..

(thank goodness my graduation is on a sunday.. if not i will be crying now...)

then there's the family vacation thingy to melaka this friday...

most people would say 'ceh friday take one day leave only ma'

unfortunately for me i work saturdays too...

which means i have to apply for two (2) days... T.T

so all i have left for the next 4 months is one, satu, uno, (1) stinking day of leave!!!

hate hate hate minimum days of leave..

even my dads company starts off newbies with 11 days of leave... or was it 14 days..

how can this be?? a bit unfair rite?? or rather a lot unfair rite!!!

plus the workload that i have to handle...

ish... annoying..

and i don't get new students..

so what if there been only 2 new students in the past 2 months..

but wasn't i promised that i get to teach the new students??

why the heck was i told that i get the students and then 'management' goes and try to squeeze those students in the already full timetable of the other teacher??

unfair unfair!!!!

haiz....

oh..

i was made the 'debt collector' again today..

apparently one of the former employee whoose daughther is learning here has some books not paid for...

guess who had to tell her the bad news.....

(just randomly did calculations.... if i work from june till december this year that'll be seven months.... that means i should get 4.667 days of leave instead....)

(The former employee claims that she has settled the bills long long long long ago... =.=)

i miss my life...

working is totally killing me...

especially my social life..

since i started work i've pretty much don't have time to keep in touch with anyone..

i barely can keep up with what i'm doing for myself..

i have to handle pretty much everything in the office..

from phone calls to emails to dealing with the customer..

not forgetting checking all the stocks.. manually..........

handling the cash... filing.... setting appointments..

making all the stupid calls to collect money from people who owe money..

telling people that they have wrongly priced the items and the items now are about RM100 more even thought they were given a diff price the week before...

not forgetting that i cant leave slightly earlier, not even 15-20mins earlier, as the lady boss doesnt trust the other two in the shop...

i find that seriously stupid..

hello??? weren't they doing just fine before i came in??

what's the point of hiring them if you don;t trust them??

and the pay i get seems so small for all the work that i do...

u might as well fire them and give me their pay since i am the one doing all the work..

including the ones they used to do before i joined the company...

haiz...

and since i work odd hours, its super hard to even plan for anything..

who would wanna go out at 9.30pm?

even if anyone was willing to, where to find a decent place to hang out for a relatively good time?

my violin playing has also gone down the drain...

i'm pretty much back to square one..

i no longer have the luxury to practise..

and i have been stuck on the same piece for the past 2 months..

but even then i can't seem to remember anything that i've been playing..

i don't have a song in my head...

that's not gud.... at all....

brian doesn't say much bout it but i'm so frustrated thinking about it..

sometimes i wish i could just quit and be all carefree again..

even this short short post was written over two days..

(okay not so short after i added on to it.. but still!!!)

how sad can this be??

haiz...