31st August 2009

todays a public holiday..

my first 2day weekend in months.....

but it's nothing like the 'dream' weekend i guess it would be...

for starters i'm home doing nothing... and its killing me...

i hate doing nothing..

which is the sole reason why i am working where i am even though i hate it...

the thing i hate even more than doing nothing all day..

doing nothing alone.. which ironically is what i am and have been doing today...

my parents went out to meet their business partner leaving me at home..

not to mention they took the small car.. which leaves me no choice but to stay at home and do nothing..

i know i should be practising... i keep complaining bout how i dun have the time to..

but i don't feel like it.. i never practise when i'm feeling down... if i do i'll end up playing everything really bad and be even more emo than i already am..

haiz..

timmy is no help either..

don't get me wrong..

he's really really sweet and all..

it's just that although he says he misses me so so much everytime he never really show it to me...

maybe i'm being overly sensitive considering that i haven't really spent time with him for 2 weeks? or is it 3 weeks?

haiz... no help that the last time we were together was spent 'discussing' about music...

plus he can't be here now with mw cuz he's back at college...

i pretty much expected him to not turn up as soon as he said he's friend is throwing a birthday BBQ today...

i don't expect him to either..

makes no sense for him to travel all the way here and go back all the way for the party...

and it was kinda obvious where he wanted to be anyways...

haiz...

i wanna go out..

but i don't wanna go alone....

:(