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Where's My Painkiller?

i am in pain...
not physical kind of pain...
it's more of a emotion or mental pain that i am going through..

stress is getting the better of me...
need to find a way to get over it..

but then...

there are so many things add to the stress..
i wanna give up of everything and just let go..
but i can't do that....
that's nothing like me...

gotta be strong...

only a month to go till the new year!!

New Year Come Quick!!!

i need guts...

exams coming up soon and i'm soo not prepared..
how??
teacher said i need more courage..
just play!!
don't care about the mistakes!!!!
don't get scared at the difficult parts!!!
haiz..
if only it was that easy for me...


due to lack of practice...
which is soo true...
next week i gotta go subang to practise..
3pm-10pm...
=.=
gotta drive there smmore....

practice???
a good thing....

driving there???
i should be fine...

but..

driving there alone????
I'm so scared....
*sobsob*

hopefully after a test drive with mom on Sunday can permanently print the way there in my brain...
and probably driving there on Monday with Timmy can build up my confidence...

and last but not least.......
i gotta make sure i dun drive like a maniac...
bad bad thing that i have been doing lately....
will start driving slow and steady again~

i lost my phone....

sobsobsobsobsobsobsob..

my phone got stolen...
so sad..
not only because i lost the phone..
but because i lost everything else inside...
numbers... pictures.. messages.... songs.... 1Gb microSD card.....

:(

memories..
.............gone...
........................forever...
haiz...

now i'm left with the worst phones in the house..
=.=

hopefully can get free phone again..
hehehhe...
*fingers crossed*

haiz...

help?

♥

It Works!!!

I have finally figured out the buttons at the top of the page~
And all that cuz i had nothing to do while emo-ing in front of the computer...
Being emo gets things done!!! Lol..


Click Click

=P

lies suck!!!

i hate it when people lie to me..
somehow whenever someone lies to me i can tell..
but when they do, i don't tell them off..
i just play along...

that feeling sucks..

why do people lie?

like seriously...

i wonder how long does it take to send a simple text message??
maybe a minute or so??
or maybe a little less than that??

but somehow it takes ages to reply messages!
i know that the reception is bad.. and i know you have classes..

but still!!

can't you just send me a message before you head to class??
or maybe just send me a message when you are out for lunch??
or just a 'i'm busy now.. talk to you later'??

somehow you never do...

i am always hanging there waiting for a reply..
at least bother to end the conversation..
i always have to ask..
it's not fun waiting..
i never make you wait unless i fall asleep..

is it really that hard for anyone to do the same??
i give up....

Indie Fixx Autumn Cornucopia Giveaway

i was randomly skipping from blog to blog when i saw this....

saw this on Indie Fixx..
Indie Fixx is a website that promotes handcrafted stuff...
(i absolutely adore handmades!)

go check them out...
there's lots of cute things there..
if only i have a credit card and lots of money~

the prizes for the giveaway are just too cute~
look look!!!

the shirt from gohgirl looks so cute..
simple (by my mom's standard) but still cute.... can i have it?? :P

ohh ohh....
there are also wall vinyls from studio jk vinyl up for grabs...
that reminds me... gotta clear lotsa stuff for my room..
re-paint the walls...
and probably get mom to buy wall vinyls for me... *fingers crossed*

wish me luck~
maybe i'l be a lucky winner... lol

Countdown to Exams!!!

only 35 days to go before my ATCL exams..
haiz..
so far yet so near..
i need to go ampac to practise..
but...
there's no one free to send me..
and i dunno the way..
at all..
definitely no way i can drive there even if i wanted to.. =/

only one thing to do now!!


be disciplined and practice at home..


no TV for me before 6pm...
>.<



brian don't kill me now...

1....2.....3.....4.....

nice song~
sing to me?? :P

happy happy day i turned 22~

for once in many many many years i get to spend my birthday not having exams...
my initial plan was to just stay home.. sit in front of the TV n practice violin..
but quite obviously i didn't do that...

many happy things happened today..
let me try to recall them...


happy #1
baby asked me out today...
erm.. more like he insisted that i didn't spend the day at home alone....
I'm glad that he did..
cuz this is the first time that i spend my birthday with someone that cares for me :)
don't consider family la.....
but no one ever did that for me...
maybe cz i was always busy with exams...
but still at least you have to seem like you triedma....
happy happy day spent with him....
tho he was busy avoiding people.....
and got me mad for that little bit..... -.-
but everything worked themselves out..
and the rest of the day was lovely..
i missed you you know!!!
need to find more time to talk with you like we did today =/


happy #2
the big big big big problem that i was having..
many many posts ago
has been dealt with...
now i am back to my almost happy self..
almost cuz i haven't fully got my appetite back....
so... as soon as i get back to normal...
all the weight lost will be coming back... haiz..
but.. dun care!!!
as long as the problem is gone, i'm happy, fat or thin :)


happy #3
two of my closest friends called me to wish me happy birthday...
you must be wondering...
close friends ma.. sure will remember what...
but i haven't heard from one of them for so long...
almost 10 months already...
cz he was busy with his life far far far away and i was busy with uni...
when he called i was so glad..
so long never talked to him already..
didn't realize that i missed his company...
hope he comes back soon!!!

the other buddy of mine lagi teruk..
everyday before my birthday he keep reminding me..
and keep saying how busy he is at work...
and also how busy he'd be cuz there was 4 people having birthdays this week...
-.-
and when today came he didn't message me at all..
like he totaly forgot.. *sobsob*
but when he did i was obviously happy lo....
how can you remind me all week and forget on the day???
hahahahhaha...
but he was sick..
poor him..
GET WELL SOON!!!!!!


happy #4
many friends remembered my birthday :))
bee hoe especially... called at 12am just to prank me...
and also to say happy birthday of course :)
miss you le... gotta plan something with you guys again...
as long as you dun have flour and eggs in your hands that is...

there were also people that i seldom or even never msg with actually wished me....
thank you thank you everyone that remembered :)
i dun care if you remembered only because of facebook :P


happy #5
i had dinner with my family and nobody got mad!!!
no.. we do not argue all the time...
its just that today was almost similar to yesterday with schedules messed up..
and yesterday everyone was snappy at each other..
so considering everything..
tonite turned out well~
yay~~

dinner was lovely..
we had it at some french/italian (i have no idea) place at DPC...
nice food..
and i managed to eat quite a bit~
apetite comong back~~~~
only bad thing -- mosquitos were sucking me of my precious blood....


happy #6
i won a free handbag from an online competition thing..
hahahhaha...
so happy..
didn't expect to be so lucky..
but the one i liked dun have already...
have to make a decision on which one i want before the 12th..
hopefully tey'l have new stocks coming in before then??? (fingers crossed)





6 happy memories for me on my birthday..
a first... wth... i am soooo left out...
dun care dun care..
new beginning, new life :)
just hoping that every year after this will be as happy!!

be by me always!!!!!!!!!

I turn 22 today~ @.@

Happy birthday to me~
Happy birthday to me~~
Happy birthday to Lil Miss Lou Lou~~~~
Happy birthday to me~~

so lame -.-

lol..

i am officially older......

gonna spend today out with you~~
hopefully don't have to spend much though...
heheheh....

(off to catch some beauty sleep~)


bye bye~

It's all happening again..

i am feeling so numb right now..
i cant feel anything at all...
can someone please help me??

i really don't want to be alone...

why can't you be there for me like you said you would be??

please don't be like him..
i can't take another hit like that...

Whats wrong with you??

wth...
i know that you have a new girlfriend but i think its not necessary to let me know..
hello???
your friendster account was always on anonymous viewing..
why the sudden change????
were you afraid that i didn't know that you have a new girl in your life??
i don't go rubbing MY relationships in your face.. although its currently in shambles
and i don't really want to know bout yours...
its been almost a year...
i have already gotten over you...
why can t you just leave me be???

where are you??

everything is getting to me...
exams, personal problems, etc. etc.
feel so scared and depressed...

i need someone to just sit with me and be with me...


where are you??

holiday~

i'm free!!!!
only from uni for the next 6 weeks :)
violin exams still up ahead...
but i still cant be any happier.. :P

but then...
the past week hasn't been good though..
i was sick, under immense pressure, slightly depressed, had food poisoning n totally lost my appetite...
ohhh... and i couldn't sleep well..
i think i threw up almost everything that i ate...
at least rm20 worth of food wasted in a day..
the worse part is that i went 2 days eating less than what i normally eat in one meal...
haiz..

and for all that the only 'good' thing that came out of it was that i lost 3kgs...
a bit sad....

hopefully things will get better...
i miss food :( i miss you