A Quick Summary

Bye bye 2008!!!

i loved you...
because i went through so much in just one year..
i went from sad and alone to happy and loved all in a year!!

lets see......
i started off as a person who just got dumped.. sad sad sad..
but through that experience i think i grew to be a stronger person???
but through all that heartache and sadness i also found out who my real friends are...
many people that i lost contact with were the ones who consoled me and helped me get back on my own two feet...
thank you all!!!!

hmm.... what else....
oh!! i'm driving already!!
hahah... so gud hor.... after soooooo many years of getting my license....
i didnt actually do this out of my own freewill...
i had to do it..
because there was no one to drive me around anymore...
big big thank you to all the people who encouraged me/forced to drive...
now i TRY to drive you around k??
:P :P

oh oh....
i have found someone who loves me dearly ♥
a person who makes me feel that i mean the world to him...
it's a first for me.. and i totally love being with you!!
although we quarrel and fight sometimes..
thank you for bearing with me!
even if i am sometimes.... most times unreasonable..
though you dont mind, don't give in too much k?
i dont want to be a pampered girlfriend..
it's not good for us....
thank you for letting me know that you love me for who i am.. not what i look like on the outside...
when you said you didnt mind the cut on my head even though it was super obvious..
it meant so much to me!!! no one has ever said that too me...
most people would make me cover it up and hide it...
Baby, seriously, thank you for being in my life ♥♥♥♥
you are the best thing that happened to me in 2008!!!

hmm... i've also been out shopping a lot...
so much until i feel like i have nothing that i really need...
no.. i do not have everything in the world..
i just feel... maybe... dont slap me....
but i just feel that my life is somewhat complete???
i was never a person that feels contented easily..
it's just that now i do not have people in my life telling me how fat/sad/ugly i am..
the company that i have now are people who give me positive feedback and that makes me feel that i am good enough...
i do not have to do much to change who i am anymore...
not like before....
where the person i thought cared bout me usually gave me super negative comments...
haiz...


but it's all different now!!!

i started afresh in 2008 and now i'm going to make sure 2009 is gonna be better..
with great friends and family with me i'm sure it will be better :)

Happy 2009!!!!!

Off to Singapore~

i'm going to leave for Singapore in about 11 hours!!!
yay!!!
at last i can get out of the country~
hahahha.. bye bye malaysia~
but..
i dont have money to shop..
a bit sad....

mommy give me some shopping money please??

oh!!!
i know.....
i should go bug my bro...
he owes me RM150!!!
hopefully i can get it from him before he spends in Singapore...
wish me luck~







-be back in 5 days-

Exam Blues~

never ever get sick before an exam...
it only makes you super blur during exam...

i know this because i just went for my exams...
with a bad cold and fever...

obviously it didnt go well...
haiz...

onli can hope for a miracle now..


:(

so fail....

Happy~

today my parents brought me and my lil bro to pavilion for a little retail therapy...
mom was in a relatively happy mood and let us buy a pair of jeans each...

bro as usual went straight to topshop and grabbed a pair of skinnies....
his is so thin that skinnies dont look tight on him at all...
he waist is a size28... and it was kinda loose...
*jealous*

and i...
miss only-get-to-buy-a-pair-of-jeans-a-year obviously headed to GAP..
i know GAP jeans are expensive..
but i only get a pair a year.. so its not that bad.... :P
and also the jeans modal that i get [curvy] really flatters my body shape =D
serious..

anyways...
i tried on a pair that was the same size as my current fav jeans...
but it turned out it fit just nice at the bum but loose at the waist..
so i thought maybe i was in between sizes.. :(
mom and lil bro suggested to try a size smaller..
but i was skeptical that i couldnt fit =.=
mom literally went
'you are size X, u think you can fit size X-1???'
*mean mean mean*
but since we had nothing else better to do my bro went to get a size smaller for me...
i was really worried at first but when i put the pants on..
IT FITTED ME PERFECTLY!!!!
so so so happy~
hahahahah
i dropped 1 dress size!!!
unbelievable 0.O

now all i gotta do is to maintain, maintain and maintain my current size...
i'm supposedly 'not allowed' to lose anymore weight..
but i don't want to anyways...
cuz i love food too much :P


how?? any suggestions..
aside from dieting and exercising?

:P

sadly true...

my blog is so sad.. literally..

i wanted to post another emo/sad post but then realised something...
out of the few post that i have i actually only have 4 post labeled 'happy'..
everything else is sad, emo, broken hearted, etc. etc.

is my life really that sad??

haiz...

[ emo post delayed until further notice ]

how could i have done that??

i drive on a relatively regular basis now!!
YAY me~

but with driving comes expensive experiences..

no..

i didn't get into an accident...

neither have i gotten lost n drove around in circles....


but...


i actually locked my car keys in the car...
in a shopping mall...
with my violin inside...

at first i panicked.. wanted to cry...
but a few seconds later i started to laugh...
just like how i reacted to the lost of my phone...
:P.. i'm going crazy i think.... =/

but then i think it's cuz i wasn't alone both times..
i had timothy by my side..
waiting with me... consoling me...
making me play super cute game on psp..
hahahha....
but his presence really helped...
made me less nervous...
*muahx*


back to the story......

i had to call a lock smith to come...
he laughed at me for locking the key in the car...
=.=... wei... i'm a newbie driver le..
smmore driving diff car..
not used to it yet...

it took him say bout.... 20 minutes to get it done...
he could have done it quicker if i told him the correct direction i'm supposed to turn the key to open the door..
i seriously didn't know..
and gave him the opposite direction...
hahahah.. poor him...
ehh... not poor.... charged me RM80...
haiz...
RM100 gone just like that~

well....
just my luck...
will definitely be more careful nxt time!!!!!
no more money to spend on 'lessons' like that.... =.=...
whoever that rides in my car gotta remind me bout it...

if not..

i'l make u foot half the bill!!!!! XD

Geram!!!!!

(Akan Datang)

Where's My Painkiller?

i am in pain...
not physical kind of pain...
it's more of a emotion or mental pain that i am going through..

stress is getting the better of me...
need to find a way to get over it..

but then...

there are so many things add to the stress..
i wanna give up of everything and just let go..
but i can't do that....
that's nothing like me...

gotta be strong...

only a month to go till the new year!!

New Year Come Quick!!!

i need guts...

exams coming up soon and i'm soo not prepared..
how??
teacher said i need more courage..
just play!!
don't care about the mistakes!!!!
don't get scared at the difficult parts!!!
haiz..
if only it was that easy for me...


due to lack of practice...
which is soo true...
next week i gotta go subang to practise..
3pm-10pm...
=.=
gotta drive there smmore....

practice???
a good thing....

driving there???
i should be fine...

but..

driving there alone????
I'm so scared....
*sobsob*

hopefully after a test drive with mom on Sunday can permanently print the way there in my brain...
and probably driving there on Monday with Timmy can build up my confidence...

and last but not least.......
i gotta make sure i dun drive like a maniac...
bad bad thing that i have been doing lately....
will start driving slow and steady again~

i lost my phone....

sobsobsobsobsobsobsob..

my phone got stolen...
so sad..
not only because i lost the phone..
but because i lost everything else inside...
numbers... pictures.. messages.... songs.... 1Gb microSD card.....

:(

memories..
.............gone...
........................forever...
haiz...

now i'm left with the worst phones in the house..
=.=

hopefully can get free phone again..
hehehhe...
*fingers crossed*

haiz...

help?

♥

It Works!!!

I have finally figured out the buttons at the top of the page~
And all that cuz i had nothing to do while emo-ing in front of the computer...
Being emo gets things done!!! Lol..


Click Click

=P

lies suck!!!

i hate it when people lie to me..
somehow whenever someone lies to me i can tell..
but when they do, i don't tell them off..
i just play along...

that feeling sucks..

why do people lie?

like seriously...

i wonder how long does it take to send a simple text message??
maybe a minute or so??
or maybe a little less than that??

but somehow it takes ages to reply messages!
i know that the reception is bad.. and i know you have classes..

but still!!

can't you just send me a message before you head to class??
or maybe just send me a message when you are out for lunch??
or just a 'i'm busy now.. talk to you later'??

somehow you never do...

i am always hanging there waiting for a reply..
at least bother to end the conversation..
i always have to ask..
it's not fun waiting..
i never make you wait unless i fall asleep..

is it really that hard for anyone to do the same??
i give up....

Indie Fixx Autumn Cornucopia Giveaway

i was randomly skipping from blog to blog when i saw this....

saw this on Indie Fixx..
Indie Fixx is a website that promotes handcrafted stuff...
(i absolutely adore handmades!)

go check them out...
there's lots of cute things there..
if only i have a credit card and lots of money~

the prizes for the giveaway are just too cute~
look look!!!

the shirt from gohgirl looks so cute..
simple (by my mom's standard) but still cute.... can i have it?? :P

ohh ohh....
there are also wall vinyls from studio jk vinyl up for grabs...
that reminds me... gotta clear lotsa stuff for my room..
re-paint the walls...
and probably get mom to buy wall vinyls for me... *fingers crossed*

wish me luck~
maybe i'l be a lucky winner... lol

Countdown to Exams!!!

only 35 days to go before my ATCL exams..
haiz..
so far yet so near..
i need to go ampac to practise..
but...
there's no one free to send me..
and i dunno the way..
at all..
definitely no way i can drive there even if i wanted to.. =/

only one thing to do now!!


be disciplined and practice at home..


no TV for me before 6pm...
>.<



brian don't kill me now...

1....2.....3.....4.....

nice song~
sing to me?? :P

happy happy day i turned 22~

for once in many many many years i get to spend my birthday not having exams...
my initial plan was to just stay home.. sit in front of the TV n practice violin..
but quite obviously i didn't do that...

many happy things happened today..
let me try to recall them...


happy #1
baby asked me out today...
erm.. more like he insisted that i didn't spend the day at home alone....
I'm glad that he did..
cuz this is the first time that i spend my birthday with someone that cares for me :)
don't consider family la.....
but no one ever did that for me...
maybe cz i was always busy with exams...
but still at least you have to seem like you triedma....
happy happy day spent with him....
tho he was busy avoiding people.....
and got me mad for that little bit..... -.-
but everything worked themselves out..
and the rest of the day was lovely..
i missed you you know!!!
need to find more time to talk with you like we did today =/


happy #2
the big big big big problem that i was having..
many many posts ago
has been dealt with...
now i am back to my almost happy self..
almost cuz i haven't fully got my appetite back....
so... as soon as i get back to normal...
all the weight lost will be coming back... haiz..
but.. dun care!!!
as long as the problem is gone, i'm happy, fat or thin :)


happy #3
two of my closest friends called me to wish me happy birthday...
you must be wondering...
close friends ma.. sure will remember what...
but i haven't heard from one of them for so long...
almost 10 months already...
cz he was busy with his life far far far away and i was busy with uni...
when he called i was so glad..
so long never talked to him already..
didn't realize that i missed his company...
hope he comes back soon!!!

the other buddy of mine lagi teruk..
everyday before my birthday he keep reminding me..
and keep saying how busy he is at work...
and also how busy he'd be cuz there was 4 people having birthdays this week...
-.-
and when today came he didn't message me at all..
like he totaly forgot.. *sobsob*
but when he did i was obviously happy lo....
how can you remind me all week and forget on the day???
hahahahhaha...
but he was sick..
poor him..
GET WELL SOON!!!!!!


happy #4
many friends remembered my birthday :))
bee hoe especially... called at 12am just to prank me...
and also to say happy birthday of course :)
miss you le... gotta plan something with you guys again...
as long as you dun have flour and eggs in your hands that is...

there were also people that i seldom or even never msg with actually wished me....
thank you thank you everyone that remembered :)
i dun care if you remembered only because of facebook :P


happy #5
i had dinner with my family and nobody got mad!!!
no.. we do not argue all the time...
its just that today was almost similar to yesterday with schedules messed up..
and yesterday everyone was snappy at each other..
so considering everything..
tonite turned out well~
yay~~

dinner was lovely..
we had it at some french/italian (i have no idea) place at DPC...
nice food..
and i managed to eat quite a bit~
apetite comong back~~~~
only bad thing -- mosquitos were sucking me of my precious blood....


happy #6
i won a free handbag from an online competition thing..
hahahhaha...
so happy..
didn't expect to be so lucky..
but the one i liked dun have already...
have to make a decision on which one i want before the 12th..
hopefully tey'l have new stocks coming in before then??? (fingers crossed)





6 happy memories for me on my birthday..
a first... wth... i am soooo left out...
dun care dun care..
new beginning, new life :)
just hoping that every year after this will be as happy!!

be by me always!!!!!!!!!

I turn 22 today~ @.@

Happy birthday to me~
Happy birthday to me~~
Happy birthday to Lil Miss Lou Lou~~~~
Happy birthday to me~~

so lame -.-

lol..

i am officially older......

gonna spend today out with you~~
hopefully don't have to spend much though...
heheheh....

(off to catch some beauty sleep~)


bye bye~

It's all happening again..

i am feeling so numb right now..
i cant feel anything at all...
can someone please help me??

i really don't want to be alone...

why can't you be there for me like you said you would be??

please don't be like him..
i can't take another hit like that...

Whats wrong with you??

wth...
i know that you have a new girlfriend but i think its not necessary to let me know..
hello???
your friendster account was always on anonymous viewing..
why the sudden change????
were you afraid that i didn't know that you have a new girl in your life??
i don't go rubbing MY relationships in your face.. although its currently in shambles
and i don't really want to know bout yours...
its been almost a year...
i have already gotten over you...
why can t you just leave me be???

where are you??

everything is getting to me...
exams, personal problems, etc. etc.
feel so scared and depressed...

i need someone to just sit with me and be with me...


where are you??

holiday~

i'm free!!!!
only from uni for the next 6 weeks :)
violin exams still up ahead...
but i still cant be any happier.. :P

but then...
the past week hasn't been good though..
i was sick, under immense pressure, slightly depressed, had food poisoning n totally lost my appetite...
ohhh... and i couldn't sleep well..
i think i threw up almost everything that i ate...
at least rm20 worth of food wasted in a day..
the worse part is that i went 2 days eating less than what i normally eat in one meal...
haiz..

and for all that the only 'good' thing that came out of it was that i lost 3kgs...
a bit sad....

hopefully things will get better...
i miss food :( i miss you

i'm lost...

i feel so lost..
dunno what to do..
i have a problem...
but i am choosing to ignore it at the moment..
cuz i dont want to make a big fuss over it..

but if i ignore it...
it will always be there...

what should i do???


continue ignoring it??

or deal with it??

exams in 40 minutes..... but.....

i'm not studying at all...
instead i am surfing the net reading latest gossip n random stuff..
how how how??

haiz...

cannot be like this!!


(left to study...)



(really)



:P

Sucess!!

at last i have figured out how to change my template!!!
hahahhahahaha...

someone congratulate me please :P

there are no gentleman left

sad to say but where i am currently stuck at there are NO guys that can be considered gentleman

a list of thing they DO NOT do:

1. they DEFINITELY DO NOT open doors for girls even though the girls have lots to carry
2. they do not help a girl carry things even though he is empty handed while the girl is carrying 2 big bags of things
3. they pull your bag down when walking up the stairs knowing that your bag is already very heavy
4. they PURPOSELY close the lift door on you even though you asked them to wait because you were carrying a heavy load and was thinking of avoiding the 3 flights of stairs. and the best part is ------ he was empty handed yet again.

and now a list of things they DO:
1. call u fat/ugly just because you are not their type
2. criticise you for not knowing things they expect you to know
3. ask you for advice then criticise you for giving advice they do not like
4. make fun of you when you make a mistake
5. laugh when they heard that some bad thing happened to you
6. disrespect you just because he thinks you are not as good as him when in fact he is at the same level as you or even lower than you


hmmm...

i wonder how guys like this even get girlfriends.
cant the girls see anything?
or are these guys really good actors???

haiz..
dislike them so much but yet i am surrounded by them...

WHERE HAVE ALL THE GENTLEMAN GONE TO???
some one point me there please??? :D

Archives

Not exactly Archives but places where you can see traces of my past...
Go check them out!!

Facebook
Friendster

About me... and this lil blog of mine..

I, Lil Miss Lou Lou, am the proud owner of the secret blog (ok la.. not so secret anymore)...
I am pretty much an introvert..
Keeping most emotions and feelings to myself rather then telling people..
Hence, the existence of this blog lo...
This is a place where Lil Miss Lou Lou comes to vent her anger, or express happiness...
Because I'll never say this to anyone's face..
Fine...
I blog more the anger than the happiness part..

But..

Life sucks..
And i cant carry all then pent up anger in me..
So..
Poor blog...

*hugs*

P/S.
If you feel that the post are directed at you..
Feel free to call me..
And if I don't pick up, you know it's true :)

memories....

i was in the midst of going thru old stuff that day and came by a very very very very very old book...
it was an 'autograph' book where my primary school friends wrote stuff in....
things we did when we were young.. lol!!

after flipping thru some of them i found it rather amusing..
aside from the fact that i realize my chinese is getting much much much worse...
it seemed that friends that were once so close to me..


but now....


most of them...
(probably all but two)
i dont even know how they are...
it seems like they have been totaly wiped out from my life...

i only still keep in touch with maybe two of them...
and the keep in touch is not the lets-go-have-a-drink kind of keep in touch..
everything is done only thru facebook or msn...
a bit sad...

hmmm....

maybe i should make an effort to meet up with them one day???
but how do i do that??? =/
maybe i should look them up on friendster/facobook???
or maybe i could call the old house number that they left there or send out new year cards to them???
lol..

crazy already..

haiz... what being back in uni does to me..... =.=

10 october 2008

wei wei...
must help me..
i dun wanna go alone..
you be free to teman me kayz???
*fingers crossed*

pink and spotted!!!

i got rashes..
sob sob sob..
look at the painful pictures...

looks normal... but take a closer look....

spotty spotty...
(bad camera phone cant get the dottiness of my skin...)

hands not spotty but covered with patches.... tsktsk...

from today on i gotta remember!!!

NO SQUID AND ALCOHOL IN ONE NIGHT!!!!

if not there'l be the return of the pink louanne!! =.=

AAHHHHHH!!!!!

long time no update...

tsk tsk.. bad blogger!!!

hmmm...

skip all the past and move on to now...


hmmmm......

week 10 in uni now..
so lil time but so many things to do..
help?? >.<>haiz..

week after next there's the technical exams and a presentation for lecture recital..
group teaching and the pronunciation assignment next...

and after getting over all that hurdles.....

final exams just 2 weeks away!!!

haiz...

someone help me????

hmmm...
hopefully all goes well and the next 6 weeks pass really really really fast...
and then i can enjoy my 8 weeks of holidays~~

yay!!!
cant wait!!

so...
after saying all that i gotta go and be MIA again...
back to practice now~

ciao!

can you help me keep this secret?

i have a lil secret i would like to share..
but i'm scared it'll get out and reach the ears of certain people..
what can i do???

too bad this there is not protected post thing here...

hmmm...

*thinking thinking*

maybe i'll write it in the next post???

=/

why can't you just disappear??

back in uni and facing those people again..
all those two faced good for nothing people!
everytime they need you help suddenly they are all friendly friendly to you
but then when you need their help,
they only help you if they feel like it.
if they are not in the mood..
well its just too bad for you,
you will be ignored and even treated like the diseased one...
the agony of living with them...

the worse part of being here?

the lecturers actually have favorite students..
and obviously being the teachers pet she gets all the perks!
even if she messes up her assignments somehow she still can get her As..
and it happen quite frquently tooo....
how could that be??
hate..... hate..... hate.....

haiz...
graduation come soon... -.-

i will miss u :)

done w klpac concert at last!!!
no more worrying bout the crazy bowing or the scary seating~
yay!!!!!

but...
i will miss all the friends that i made there..
maybe i'd be playing again next concert...

but...
who knows..... :)

and i'm back home again....

barely 12 hours ago i wrote about how sad i was in uni..

but now.....


im back home again!!!!
hahahahha

it wasnt all that good..
espiecially the part where i had to decide how to come back in onli 15 minutes...
haiz..
but all turned out well n here i am!!!
so happy now!!!
i miss home!!!!!!
even after just 1nite..


i have at least 3 more months to go..
how how how???
someone save me?? =P



people must be wondering what's with this crazy girl..
only 12 hours then back home again..
i didnt want to do it...
forced to..
because i had to attend orchestra rehearsal at KLPAC....
haiz... seem so commited.....
lol...
brian..... because i promised you.......
haiz.........

practise wasnt all that good..
the first half i sat aaaallllll alone....
the 'oh-so-lovely' concert mistress switched my partner away... leaving me all alone..
then after that a different guy was put beside me...
he played too loud and too fast most of the time..
someone help me!!!
i dun wanna mess up...
should i rat him out???
haiz..

i only will know tomorrow before rehearsal!!
wish me luck and pray that i have the guts to rat him out... :(


tata~~~

back at uni....

sad sad sads news for me...
i'm back at the place that i really dun wanna be...
but yet it is a necessary for me to be...
may all goes well :)

surprised >.<

karen dropped by my place today on the way to 1U for movie w sidney to pass me the shoes that i bought from elo that day..
(all the best to sidney and his stand. chart. thing...)

dun tell mom!!! she thinks i have to many pairs already.... which might be somewhat true...
but...
it was rm25 onli....

besides the pair of shoes (which was the only thing i was expecting)
there was another pair of slippers in the bag...

karen got it for free at sm event... but it was my size..
and she decided to giv it to me...
so sweeeeettt of her... :):)

but that wasnt all........
there was a lil envelop in the bag as well....

frontback

lil disclaimer.. lol... not needed in my opinion...

it gets cuter inside....
front

back

so cute....
the message was so sweet also...
thanks karen!!!
for evrything....
from baking cupcakes to bazaar/flea market hopping..
not forgetting emmagem-ing at nite... XD XD


maybe by my next holiday i can drive u around more??
lol..
*fingers crossed*

all the best with your interview :)
see you on weekends after i go back UPM (so sad so sad)....
come visit me if u r free.. heheheheh

driving on a friday

was left all alone to drive to class last friday..
so sad so sad..
but in the end i didn't have to drive alone all the way..
only to karen's house...
hehehehe...

wasnt all that bad though.. but i still don't like driving.. =.=

neways, karen brought me to bijou cafe at one of the condominiums near mont kiara
pretty pretty cafe in pretty pretty condo..
the setting was so un-malaysian like...
but it was lovely..
the prices on the other hand... hahaha..

should bring mom there one day to try out the other food... hehehehe...

pics pics below..

pink placemats (karen took one home, but it's still in the car :P)

fudge brownie

choc chip scone

bijou soda i think..

lime mint drink

lol.. i really need to know the name of the drinks better..
the food was okay..
the fudge brownie was super chocolaty....
but i rather the scone was not choc chip.. was in the mood for a plain scone... haiz..

after lunch/tea i had to go for flute lesson...
i dunno which is scarier though... flute lesson or driving... hmmm.......
shld think that out.. lol.


evryth turned out okay..
the driving and class...
but still........
i dun like driving... hahahhaha...

but it's a necessity.. slowly getting the hang of it..


wish me luck this friday!!

Randomness

I <3 Mitsui's Free Tickets!!

2 days ago i was given tickets to go watch an MPO concert under the invitation from Auntie Louisa.. and i was sooooo glad i decided to go..
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well the day started with breakfast with karen at coffee bean at desa park city..
i had a salmon-scrambled egg thing..
it wasn't all that bad but not good either..
i thought i lacked taste..
haiz..
but it was presented rather well....



we headed back to my place to do some beading stuff...
we're making them to sell...
i need the cash..
hahahah



















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the concert that nite had an italian theme..
there were old violins on display but i didn't touch any...
--- stradivari ---
anyways, since i was given 4 invites i decided to ask michelle and moh..
moh brought a fren along... dun even know her name... tsktsk..

the program was starting only at 6.30pm but we were there at 5pm!! there was a reception thingy that came along with the invites...




the food was lovely!!!! apparently the food was fully catered by mandarin oriental hotel... yum yum yum.... there was rissotto and ravioli, cold cuts, cutesie salmon dishes, stuff prawns............
AND!!!!!! wonderful desserts!!!!

tiramisu, fruits tart/strudle, some fruit pudding thing (lol.. i can't remember the names of anything...), gelato (michelle had 5 scoops!! it was just too yummy~)

we stayed at the food section for the most of the 90minutes before the concert... we love food just too much!!! we were even contemplating to stay there when the concert starts!! hahaha.... well, obviously we didn't get to do that... but the concert was lovely... it was a chamber concert with the players playing 'old' (300yr old) instruments.. the sound was wonderful.. but somehow to michelle the stradivari wasn't as gud as she'd like.. lol.. stradivari must be flipping in his grave!!!

after the concert i had to head back immediatly 'cause i was hitching a ride with auntie louisa.. it was kinda awkward at first.. but eventually the-oh-so-quiet me indulged in a musically oriented conversation in the car... hahaha...

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post concert dinner...
my parents made me drive them to desa park city for dinner..
at 9.30pm!!!!

we went to the relatively new place 'la casa'
mom had a smoked salmon ceaser salad while i had a mushroom soup..
the soup was yummy....
and the salad was delish!
the salmon was very fresh and was nicely snoked???
haiz..
i gotta go learn my foodie terms..
hahah...

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so a rough summary of my day..
i had salmon for breakfast, lunch (or rather tea) and supper!!! hahaha
so much salmon in a day..
but it was all lovely :)

My FIRST sale!!!

i'm going broke so i have decided to make jewellery to sell!!!
went by karen's place to take pics of the 'goods' and actually made my first sale to karen's mom!!!

thank you auntie!!!


*have to be rajin rajin make more so can sell!!*

goods sold : 1 crystal bracelet

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i went to watch made of honor woth karen too...
it was a private screening sponsored by adverlets..
it was a lovey dovey movie..
perfect for my mom!!! lol

anyway, throughout the movie i realised that patrick dempsey has rather stubby fingers!!
but he still looks like the Mc Dreamy i have gotten to know...
as long as he keeps his fingers out of frame more
hahahahah

*i'm so mean..*

I've a job???????

i got a job!!!
a super low paid internship thing...
my mom asked me to get one and i did..
lol.. but i'l be working from home on d internet..
hahahahah...
wish me luck..
if there is anyone at all reading this.. :P

Running Away by Midnight Hour

Don't lie and say that it's OK.
It's alright if there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Leona Lewis ~ Better In Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time


I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remaind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time


Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will


Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

little somethings...

ANNIVERSARIES
Always celebrate! Whether it's the 1st or the 50th, each year together is a triumph.


APPRECIATION
Let each other know how much you appreciate each other. You may already know but hearing it from each other is always better.


BEST FRIENDS
Be best friends preferably before being boyfriend-girlfriend. Take time to know each other so the relationship will be a deep one. Tell each other about your crushes, dreams and problems.

Make sure he/she is your best friend before getting engaged. The strong bond of friendship will help you both survive tough times.


BOND
make it a point to spend time together often but leave room for each other. Also spend time alone w/ each other, so that at the end of the day you could both share your experiences. This way, you stay interesting with your partner.


CHANGING EACH OTHER
Don't marry an asshole,a jerk or a bitch.You'll never change each other.


COMPLIMENTS
Always compliment each other. This will prevent feelings of resentment & thinking that one is being taken for granted.


DATE
Keep doings things that you both enjoy, do them together. Make time & continue to date to keep the romance - look good, smell good to maintain physical attraction


DIFFERENCES
Celebrate differences. Never force your ideologies down each other's throat. Give up trying to turn your partner into you. Accept differences, appreciate them.


FIGHTS
Fight w/the aim to resolve the issue. Don't outdo each other. The longer you extend the fight. The more chances that you'll say something hurtful that you don't really mean. As mad as you were w/ your partner, he/she is still the person who laughs at your jokes & thinks you're hot.


Hear each other out, don't dig up old issues. Choose you battles. Make sure the fight will be worth it & that something will change in the relationship as a result of the fight.


FLAWS
Know that the perfect person does not exist. Know that just as there are things that you love about him/her, there will be things that will make you go crazy. We are only human with our own flaws.


FUN
Have fun together! This means keeping the fun & spontaneity that was there in the early days. Allow yourselves to get silly- shower together, pee w/the door open etc.

Being able to make each other laugh & see the lighter, crazier, absurd side is the best way to get through all the differences in personalities, adjustments in lifestyle & opposing viewpoints.


GOALS
Make sure you have similar goals. It would be difficult to keep your bond intact if your views are complete opposite,


GRUDGES
Quit tabulating grudges. Let it off. Discuss it, then trash it, don't recycle it.


KEEPING IT HOT
Keep it hot by traveling to diff. places together. A new setting will do wonders. Always have skin contact - be it holding hands, a massage or just plain leg rubbing.


HONESTY
Don't lie or hide things. The problem will only get bigger.


KNOW EACH OTHER
Learn each other's interest. It really keeps the conversation flowing!


HUG
A hug can be far better more intimate than a kiss.


IDENTITY
Don't lose your personality- that's why he/she fell in love w/you.Have separate interest & activities to keep your individual, & to be able to contribute more to the relationship.


INDEPENDENCE
Having your own income means you're the boss in your life.


IN-LAWS
Make rooms for the in-laws.


INTENTIONS
Wish each other well. Don't wish each other worst


ISSUES
Speak up about the awkward stuff now, like money & sex. The earlier,the better.


LISTEN
Listen, listen, listen. Hear each other out especially during arguments.


LOOK GOOD
Mind your appearance! Stay fit & healthy for each other.


LOVE
It all boils down to your love, chemistry & respect for each other.


MEMORIES
Remind each other of the old days. Do something that you used to do for each other before. It may even be corny but it made you two together. Experience new things together- from dining into a new restaurant to experiencing street food together to exploring to new places. It's the little surprises that make great memories.


MIND READING
No matter how long you've been together, do not think that you can read each other's mind.


NEEDS
Be good to yourself,then be good to your partner. That's what love is all about. Think about your partner. Will it make him/her happy? Will she/he enjoy it? Consider each other's feelings. Be very attentive & sensitive to each other's needs, physically & emotionally, that way your partner learns to do the same for you. Never take your partner for granted.


PRIORITIES
If one says it's important, then it is! Prioritize each other among other things!


SEX
Be sexually adventurous. Make each other feel comfortable sharing
your sexual fantasies or frustrations.


SPACE
Give each other space. Have dates with your girlfriends, have your boy's night out. If you can't trust each other with this, then don't get married.


SORRY
Say sorry when you're wrong.


SURPRISES
No matter how long you've known each other, be open to surprises,
both good or bad.


TEAMWORK
Think for two & always work as a team. Consult each other before
making a decision because everything will always affect both of you.

Strengthen couple power. In many ways, we have to decide based on what is best for the relationship in favor of our individual selves.


SUPPORT
Support each other's dream. Be willing to follow your passions, support your partner in his/her decisions & create new ones together.

Two heads are better than one.


TALK
Tell each other's stories. Life goes by so fast & its easy to see how easily couple can grow apart. Whenever something funny, scary, exciting or juicy happened to you or to someone you know, tell each other about it & have your partner do the same. Keep each other in the loop of life,even by email if you have to.

Communication is the main ingredient in successful long relationships. Share your feelings w/o judgments or criticism,active listening, then working up to a discussion for problem solving. It takes continuous effort & learning.

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) - e e cummings

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
                   
i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart
(i carry it in my heart)

one word can cut me deeper than the sharpest razor..
he did it once again..

Octivia - Benjamin Siew

Stole this off my friends blog
with permission of course
in a way i can relate to this song as it reflected what i was feeling the past few weeks
well maybe not the last part.. i wanna move on!!

Octivia


Room smells like cheap cigarettes.
Bed smells like hard liquor.
My face against the pillow.
The only thing left that's sweet is the memory with you.

Eyes wide open, vision blurred.
Mind clogged with secondhand smoke.
Only thing that's clear is the name Octivia.
And the lips that i couldn't resist.

Oh why have you had to slip off my life?
The feeling's so real that it no longer hurts.
The numbness in my life i felt.
Told me that you're still a part of me.


Chorus:
Have you ever turned back?
Just to see if i'm following?
Have you ever felt bad?
When you see me in the dark corner crying?


Those eyes of yours.
I can see your love for me within.
You did not show, you tried to hide.
But you forgot that you're a part of me.

I'm not the shadows you thought.
I'm the light that shines onto you.
So bright that you cant see me.
Just like the amount of love i shine onto you.


Chorus:
Have you ever turned back?
Just to see if i'm following?
Have you ever felt bad?
When you see me in the dark corner crying?


Face passed, breath exhaled.
Both of us standing in the sea of people.
Eyes squints, lips sealed.
Both of us waiting for each other.
So shall i make the first move?

--End--

a hug was all that i needed

1am in the morning and i am still awake

no longer from the pain and crying

but actually 'cause i am feeling much better

one friend in particular helped the most
thank you for listening to me that night
the hug that you gave me meant the most


you gave me a sense of being loved


although it was only for that few minutes you spent with me
i really did feel so much relive


all the sadness and tears that i had pent up in me
the pain that caused me sleepless nights
all were gone
even for a lil while
thank you for showing me that even without him i can move on
i still can be loved after this


all i have to do now is have the courage to love again
maybe not so soon but i sure hope i do again
:)