no matter how much you say you miss me i find it seriously hard to believe it..

out of the many times you say you miss me, you never call..

not even once all because you don't like it...

how can anyone believe that you miss them when you are not willing to call?

i am not asking for a full on 1 hour call..

just a short call, even for 5 minutes i'd be happy...

i tried to call many times..

but you are never there..

excuses range from i was sleeping to i was in class are still acceptable..

and i am sorry if i interrupted you..

but when you say i didn't realise you called or even i am busy with last minute practises and don't want to talk now, my heart just drops..

i never had and still do not have any words whenever you throw those excuses in my face..

my brain draws a blank whenever i attempt to think about it..

crying is never an option because everyone thinks that everything is picture perfect with us...

everybody has a breaking point..

i wonder how far i am from mine...